I did it again.
I got very short with both of my kids this morning.
Drummer. He once again is fighting something in his body. Up during the night with a sicky stomach. Not feeling up to going to school. Again. He just missed two days a week ago. For the same reason. I think it may be a food thing, but that is another story.
Dollie. I stumbled upon a project she has yet to finish. It should have been done weeks ago. But it’s not. I got short with her. Maybe even yelled a little.
Then the Holy Spirit stepped in and showed me a few things.
With Drummer. Though I often feel like he is “playing” me, I have to admit he knows his limitations. I on the other hand, do not. I have some pain in my body most days. Yet I keep going. Then, I have the audacity to expect everyone else to do the same. Drummer knows his limitations. He’s sleeping peacefully right now. on the couch. Maybe I could learn something from this – something about knowing my limitations. Life will go on right? if I’m not there….doing whatever it is…
Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Matt. 11:28With Dollie. She struggles with finishing things. She forgets about them, and moves on to the next thing. That is the creative side of her. Always moving. Always creating. But unfortunately, seldom finishing. That’s me too. I struggle with finishing things. I have lists out the wahoo, but they don’t help anymore. There is just too much to do, and too little time. So I have fallen back on the theory of “The tyranny of the urgent.” Make sure everyone is fed, clean, has clean clothes, and gets where they need to be, and I’m feeling pretty good about the day. But what about the pile on my desk? Or the stack of photos yet to be scrapbooked. Etc….
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. 2 Tim.4:7Lord, thank you for the Holy Spirit and for this revelation. Thank you that even in these relationships with my kiddos, I am learning about you and about myself. Thank you for forgiveness. And for rest. And thank you for that finishing anointing that I’ve been praying for.
I love you Lord.